Spring Cleaning Day 2017 began with my gmail box. After filing hundreds of unread devotional emails that go along with books I've not finished (or started) have caused me to come to a sobering realization. It's possible I don't want to change. I'm comfortable in the crazy mess that has been my norm. I have so many well placed distractions in my life that keep me from looking at the mess. Technology is the BIGGEST distraction of them all. This isn't one of those "I'm fasting from social media to re-prioritize" posts - at least I don't think it is. Acts of balancing don't always have to be drastic, but they do need to come with a big picture perspective and an awakening. Healing and physical therapy have taken a disproportionate slice of my emotional pie. I still struggle with balance and strength. (physically...and apparently emotionally too) My ankle reconstruction was kind of a big deal. I missed 9 weeks of teaching school. It would have been more if Summer hadn't intervened. That is hardly a drop in the bucket compared to a friend who has missed 2 years of school in her battle with leukemia, or another friend who has been battling another form of cancer for 4 years, or another who just had a mysterious stroke at too young of an age and is just starting a lengthy rehabilitation. (I think I'm digressing...) The point is, life events happen that can throw us off balance in a heartbeat and I'm seeing how equal and opposite the force needs to be to make things right. However, equal and opposite don't always have to happen in the same time frame...I think? A lot of little pushes can equal one big push and vice versa Just like those giant scales we grew up with. Yes, sometimes you have to move the big slide-y thing drastically to find the balance. Other times, though, it takes small bumps back and forth to fine tune the balance. I'm not sure yet if I need to make big slide-y thing moves, or just a few small bumps. I do know I have two more days of quiet to listen to the One who levels mountains and makes paths straight again. I also know I need to make room in the coming weeks for small slide-y bumps of quiet reflection and listening.
Isaiah 40 English Standard Version (ESV)
Comfort for God's People
40 Comfort, comfort my people, says your God.
2 Speak tenderly to Jerusalem,
and cry to her
that her warfare[a] is ended,
that her iniquity is pardoned,
that she has received from the Lord's hand
double for all her sins.
3 A voice cries:[b]
“In the wilderness prepare the way of the Lord;
make straight in the desert a highway for our God.
4 Every valley shall be lifted up,
and every mountain and hill be made low;
the uneven ground shall become level,
and the rough places a plain.
5 And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed,
and all flesh shall see it together,
for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.”
I'm SO #grateful for this week of calm. #notgoingtobeEASYbutdefinitelygoingtobeWORTHit #findingDory #justkeepswimming #stoneofrememberance